having finished my exams two weeks ago and foolishly finished with my girlfriend a little before, whilst in the depths of exam inspired despair, you might have thought I would have nothing better to do than update this diary. And you would be right. I don’t have anything better to do except feel pleased with myself and sorry for myself simultaneously. So that’s mainly what i’ve done and drink a fair bit, as that works as treatment for both conditions. But it has disturbed me that i’ve gone a bit barren blog wise.
Work is slightly too busy to allow any interesting ranting or reportage, so i’ve decided that I make this all a bit more personal, and entertain myself by attempting to write something more like a diary than a, a… well.. whatever, it was before. But that’s not all!
A bit bored yesterday so I’ve decided to spend the next month without alcohol to what it is like. Of course, curiosity wasn’t the only reason. I have long know that with excessive alcohol i become impatient, argumentative and morose.. (unfortunately, it would seem to be in my genes) I don’t drink to that excess often but it’s happened often enough in the last six months for me to take notice and if I am objective about it, even on small doses I get grumpy rather than merry. So it is not as if I am going to missing out on much.
Although this is largely symbolic, I am determined to see it through. Mind you, the last time I tried anything like this, I lasted one day! I was just trying a week which ought to have been easy because I often go four or five days without anything.. but was made difficult by the social pressures. I was bought a drink by someone who had assumed I was joking, and since it wasn’t a particularly serious abstinence it seemed churlish to turn it down.
But since a month is more concrete and this must be complete by 28th July for my last day at work (ever ) and my birthday that weekend I am more confident of success.
And sure enough, within an hour of posting this up, I got a text message from a lovely young lady offering to buy me a pint. Fortunately, my resolve is strong, so I told her no… she could buy me a soft drink instead. She took it very well. It is almost a date, which will be interesting, i’ve never been on a date on Ribena before.
I tried not drinking for a month. It was worth it, but hell was i bored of sobriety by the end
So no tomato juice then? Good luck with it Cas – I won’t be joining you but I will bring you some grapejuice (yes GRAPE juice – not the fermented kind) on thursday 😉
Hurrah for mature and life changing experiments!